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The test this morning was negative. I am really just so fed up right now. Why would the first test be positive if I'm not pregnant?

TTC is driving me CRAZY!!!

I know you have been patiently waiting all day....or maybe you have been dying to know.....or maybe you could care less....but the results are IN! (Well, sort of....) When Brad and I were grocery shopping last night (after we witnessed a truck have a wreck with a motorcycle, the truck running OVER the man on the motorcycle, the man being flung into the median of a very busy highway, waiting for the police and ambulance to get there and giving a statement of what we saw to the police) I decided that I was TIRED of always buying the expensive pregnancy tests. I've heard the cheap ones work just as well as the expensive ones. So I bought Fact Plus. Cheapo. Then this morning, I got up and took the test (how many times have I done this now!?). I brushed my teeth and looked down (not expecting to see anything) and I saw a faint line! I picked up the test to get a better look and the line disappeared a little. Crap. I wasn't supposed to touch it for like 2-3 more minutes. The line was sooooo faint, it looked like a little piece of thread was on the screen. I woke Brad up and told him to look at it. He said that he didn't see it (but then again he was still half asleep and his eyes were not focused yet...). So I brought it to work to let my sister and Mom look at it. Mom couldn't see the line, but April could. Did I mention the line was FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAINT?!?!?!? They keep telling me "A line is a line" but I'm just scared that because it was so faint, that it might be a faulty test, or a false positive. Usually if the vertical line of the (+) is faint, it's the whole line that's faint, right? Mine only showed a little thread of the vertical line. So we went out and bought an EPT Certainty Digital test. Negative. BUT my urine was less concentrated (at 10:30am) and the digital test detects hcg as low as 50.....the cheap test detects hcg as low as 25. So maybe I'm just barely pregnant? Like Las Vegas pregnant? And so my hcg level isn't higher than 50 yet? I'm so confused. And at this point, I've probably confused you too. SO I'm just going to take the other cheapo test in the morning and hope and PRAY it's positive too. PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEASE pray that it is!!

Bunco

So May is my month to host and I'm having a really hard time deciding what to do about the food. Everything has been done-pizza, spaghetti, tacos, hamburgers, hot dogs, lasagna, wings, etc. What the heck am I going to do? Keep in mind that I don't cook! I can cook, I just don't like to. So any ideas?

Testing..1..2..3...Testing

When to test, when to test.....I tested last Wednesday, you know. So I'm thinking of testing again this Wednesday. And then the next Thursday is my annual you-know-what appointment....if this week's test reads negative but I am really pregnant, surely he will be able to tell.....you know, by my cervical position and what not...hmm.....I am having a lot of symptoms too! I've been nauseous for a week or two now. And it's getting into more of a pattern, usually between 7:30-9:00am and 2:00-4:00pm. Weird, huh? And I've had those flippin headaches, too. Did I mention my forehead is ALLLLL broken out?? And I've had a few cramps here and there. Those symptoms sound promising, don't they? But then again, I've also convinced myself that I was pregnant before and had similar symptoms....even to the point my hair wouldn't lift when I got highlights-that's some serious convincing! So who knows.....I'll let you know when I test. But for now, how cute is this?

I'm thinking about getting letters like those for our nursery. What do you think?

11 months

Only one more month until our very first anniversary! How exciting! I know everybody always says this, but time really does fly by! After we got back home (and back to reality!) after our honeymoon and settled in, I was very surprised by how much of Brad I still had to learn about! You would figure after dating someone for six years and basically growing up with them, that you would know everything about them. Boy, did I get a rude awakening once we moved in together. Men are so....different! That sounds stupid when I type it out, but it's true! It was so hard at first, learning to live with someone (since I lived on my own for two years). But we've made it through our first year!! Well almost anyway!



I love him!

American Idol

Have you seen this article about the new Idol judge possibly quitting already? I hope she does. I can't STAND her. And seriously, if she says the word 'riffs' one more time, I'm going to go through the tv and smack her.

I know Randy Jackson said last night that this was 'the most talented group of kids he has ever seen', but I am really not that impressed this year. Danny was my only favorite from the beginning, but he hasn't been doing all that great here lately either. No one has really. I like Adam because he is entertaining (and he can sing crazy notes) but in the real world, I don't think he could sell that many albums. Same with Allison, even though I think she has a BEAUTIFUL name!

I am glad Lil went home last night, but I think Matt should have gone home before Anoop.

So there's my Idol recap for you. Do you like the new look? I do! Thanks Leslie!

It's good to be back!

I'm not having the best of luck back in Tuscaloosa either. I took a test this morning and it was negative. Then, my first day back to work, I had to fire our maintenance man-and all that off 4 hours of sleep! Not the best of days! But I'm not going to let anything get me down. I am still holding on to some hope that this will be our cycle to get pregnant! I am very confident! And very excited! Now back to my mountains of paperwork...

Oh, and by the way, I'm having to change my blog up again-hope you like the new layout too!