Baby Harper and some ramblings

Remember this post of mine about baby Harper who had some serious complications at birth? Well now read this post!! Baby Harper got to go home last night after almost a month in the hospital! She is doing so great and she is the cutest little baby! The power of prayer really works and it just amazes me how God uses all things for His glory. Since Kelly has been posting about this whole situation on her blog, TWO people have come to know Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior! How great is that? I'm so thankful that Harper is home now!

I can't wait to have a baby. I yearn for it. I dream about being pregnant. I really hope and pray that we get pregnant quickly after we start trying. I feel that things in my life are being put in line for me to have support for infertility. I love reading infertility blogs and hearing the stories of these amazing girls that have been trying to conceive for years and are going through IUI's and IVF. And just last week, our church started an infertility Bible Study and support group. AND we just had a couple join our Bible Study class that were 22 weeks pregnant and lost their baby. Why are all of these things coming up now, when we are about to start trying for a baby? Is God trying to prepare me for infertility? I really hope not and I hope I am just reading too much into this. I have read so many books on fertility and pregnancy. I am trying to be so prepared and in control, like I always am, and I just feel like God is going to use this time to teach me some sort of lesson. I just don't know what. And it scares the crap out of me! My Mom got pregnant with me and my sister the first month she tried, my sister got pregnant the first time she tried with one of her kid's, one was an accident and she got pregnant with the other ON bc pills! The women in my family are extremely fertile, so I've always assumed I would be to. I'm just trying to figure out why all of this infertility stuff is showing it's face everywhere I turn.

Ok sorry for the rant. Obviously I had a lot on my chest and I didn't even know it was there! And to update you on the stroller, after April and I looked at it a bit closer, it wasn't very soft. The sides were actually pretty hard and not what I want my newborn in! And I'm really trying to NOT buy anything baby until I actually GET pregnant! Happy Friday everyone!