Excuse this post, I'm just ill.

You want to know what really hacks me off? Well you better because I’m going to tell you whether you want me to or not. I love to sing. LOVE it. I sing on the praise team and in the choir at church. Recently, the music director asked me to sing a song with the choir, something I’ve only done one other time. It’s a scary, scary thing, singing in front of a bunch of people, especially when you don’t sing all that wonderfully. (I am my own worst critic and at times become absolutely disgusted with myself after singing something. I have my brilliant singing moments, rarely, but am no Carrie Underwood.) So I had maybe 3-4 weeks to learn this song. Normally, that's no problem, except for the fact that my cd player in my car ATE a cd and quit working. It takes me 20ish minutes to get to work everyday plus I ride around a lot in my line of work, giving me a lot of time to practice the song. Well now that my cd player in my car is broken, obviously I can't practice! So I try to practice at home, but honestly I can't concentrate all that great when I know Brad is outside the door listening and by the time I get home from work each day, the last thing I want to do is work for two more hours on singing. I want to see my husband and Bella! So I tried to practice the song, but it just didn't sound good. Some parts were a little too high for me, mainly because my range sucks. So I let the music director know and he worked on it with me and it actually got a little better. I was good to go. Then tonight at choir practice, we practiced my song, which we will be singing in a week and a half. I am singing along, everything is going swimmingly, here comes the high note........!!AGR?B?SG?!!.....comes out of my mouth. OBVIOUSLY, very very obviously I jacked the note WAY up. And the choir wasn't even singing at this point, so everyone's ears were on ME and my baaad note. As soon as it comes out, I turn around and give a look of sincerest apology to their ears. Completely humiliating. You know it's bad when my tone deaf husband agrees that I messed it up. Please bury me under a rock so I don't have to sing that song in a week and a half. Please!!!