4th Test

Why yes, I am delusional. And yes, it was negative. I took it this morning. I just don't understand how I had all those symptoms for 2 1/2 weeks and then BOOM, no symptoms and no positive. It just doesn't make any sense to me. I was reading one of my pregnancy books last night and it said that if you are wondering if you are pregnant, you should first and foremost rely on your maternal instincts, which are greater than any pregnancy test. I let out a big HA! at the book. What a load of crap. My 'maternal instincts' told me I was pregnant and they LIED! What do you say about that you stupid book! I still won't know for sure until Thursday, though. But like I said, I'm sure I'm not. And in all actuality, not being pregnant right now would be for the better. I don't have thousands of dollars lying around to cover those hospital bills! We are still set on trying for a baby in May, that's when our maternity coverage on our insurance policy will kick in. So that's that I guess. We FINALLY got internet installed at the house today thanks in part to my mother-in-law who had to sit at my house from 8:00am to sometime after 3:30pm waiting for the stupid technician to install it. Maybe now Brad can finish his franchise classes online. I'll update Thursday, just in case a miracle happens! Thanks for the continued prayers that God's will will be done in all of this.